not again

Last time when things started to go wrong for the other BLM's who were pregnant again, it was scary and then of course it went wrong for me too. It seems to have started again and it's happening to people who I want to be pregnant nearly as much I want myself to be, women who I could genuinely be entirely happy for. I just want to cover my ears (even though I read, not heard the news) and yell "No, no, no, no, no ...." at the top of my lungs.